considering abandonment

this is my father

get over it

cease to be

that is how strong this is

it isn't so much a matter of boiling

keep falling harder. and harder yet.

fall apart harder. harder harder.

from sol to eva

..."Just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, struggling, grasping, confusing, itchin, scratching, mumbling, bumbling, grumbling, humbling, stumbling, numbling, rumbling, gambling, tumbling, scumbling, scrambling, hitching, hatching, bitching, moaning, groaning, honing, boning, horse-shitting, hair-splitting, nit-picking, piss-trickling, nose sticking, ass-gouging, eyeball-poking, finger-pointing, alleyway-sneaking, long waiting, small stepping, evil-eyeing, back-scratching, searching, perching, besmirching, grinding, grinding, grinding away at yourself. Stop it and just DO!"...

trouble

i will continue to laugh in the face of a new day

portrait

he asked me what was wrong and told me to relieve anxiety however i saw fit so i drew a million plus lines on a wall with blue paint

unnumbered pages

flax

playing hooky

semiosis...kinda

he needs to stop talking at me

i miss painting

and so what

i really don't like the word lament

act of superstition

Era il mio?

i am alright

i find respit here