in progress studio glimpses

MOVING OUT and SENIOR SHOW

2010-03-13T11:16:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. Come the end of undergraduate fine art studies, I am going to officially be moving out of this blog and starting fresh, a new chapter, HERE. Basically, same deal, just a different location with my current email address. Please start following and changing links accordingly. This blog will stay up for reference but it will be dead and abandoned. Come to think of it, I will probably stop updating this after this entry. Last entry.

Above is my senior show invitation card. The show opens April 30th and May 1st in Hamilton Hall at the University of the Arts in Philadelphia. My classmates and I would love to see you there. Until then, we will all be devoted to our studios.

mezzotint

2010-03-05T08:59:00.000-08:00

mezzotint colors

I'm still working on it.
Going home this weekend to clear my head.

involution

2010-03-03T12:35:00.001-08:00

getting there...

i don't enjoy when my outlet becomes the thing causing stress....

basic

2010-02-26T15:42:00.001-08:00

thats me in the corner with michael stipe

2010-02-24T09:44:00.000-08:00

poetry

2010-02-21T08:02:00.000-08:00

raw

all that i am

2010-02-13T17:08:00.000-08:00

forward

2010-02-12T09:00:00.000-08:00

i forgot i already had a word for it

2010-02-01T10:39:00.001-08:00

parallel lines

2010-01-15T17:33:00.000-08:00

drawing repeat patterns. trying to keep the grid in my hand and 'wing it'.

i don't have many more words to throw out there.

i can give you all the visuals you want, though.

making music in Swimmingpool The Band is one of the few things I look forward to these days.

pelli

2010-01-09T09:41:00.000-08:00

studio

2010-01-04T12:54:00.000-08:00

back in the studio again. i'm back to simple grids and lines.

will upload pattern work from the last couple weeks soon...

aghast

2009-12-31T08:04:00.000-08:00

Been thinking a lot about the phrase "I am without myself".

My cousins' children.

That is all...

dyad

2009-12-27T18:07:00.000-08:00

Been thinking about tunnel perspective.

Individual vs. Independent.

Theological syncretism.

I hate seeing passionate people getting discouraged because they make excuses based on this estranged notion of human nature. Don't blame human nature. It is not universal.

Unfortunately, I am an example myself.

stimuli

2009-12-22T05:29:00.000-08:00

Currently at my parents', taking a break(?), doing little besides watching the news, milking demonoid, reading, watching hockey, and eating pralines.

My sister turned 30 today.

My best friend had a baby this past weekend.

culminate

2009-12-15T07:40:00.000-08:00

patterns of my senses

2009-12-08T08:21:00.000-08:00

...

words

2009-11-29T10:18:00.000-08:00

Have been working on the interlocking word patterns and coming to a lot of great conclusions...connecting what I am doing artistically to the theories of physics and quantum mechanics.

It is really important to understand, and always keep in mind, the relationship between sensory experience and the individual.

My walls are breathing with words. Every time I look to my left, I see something "finished" that failed. It proves that even when you create the rules for your own games, you can end up at a dead end with lost control. In keeping with the scientific method and scientific experimentation, one can't always be right...even when all the factors, laws, and rules are laid down for you. The distraction stopped working after page 3. There are 40.

the hunter gets captured by the game

2009-11-04T16:37:00.000-08:00

I have finished what I have been calling Visual Puzzles...the third.

I think this one is getting at this idea of space as canvas and repetition of image as space in a more interesting way.

I have nothing else to talk about except for my art work these days.

infatuation

2009-10-24T13:42:00.000-07:00

Non-silver prints I have been working on. Printed on cotton.

Above is a cropped photo of a printed yardage piece I've been working on. It is an interlocking pattern of the word..."INFATUATION".

My senior presentation went well.

I am getting the season changing blues.

incinto

2009-10-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

Went home this weekend. I didn't realize how much I needed that visit. Carly's baby is due on my birthday.

sort

2009-10-09T23:41:00.001-07:00

Am I just making what looks like home...to me?

compositional puzzle #2

2009-10-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

Different rules for this one. I used the three yards of fabric as the canvas and went with my mistakes making them look purposeful as I was printing. It was all based off of a tapestry I wove over the summer (set in the piece).

What's next? A larger than life portrait.

resolved

2009-09-30T14:12:00.000-07:00

...and I wrote a poem in class yesterday.

THE
|<-------------------------------------->0
GAME
FINDING_____ETHOS
STIFF_______________SOUL
HALTS____________________LIFE
LAUGH________________________________EVERYWHERE
FEEL____EMPTY
YOURSELF___________YIELDING
HUMBLY_______________________GOING
HIGH____________________________________GRAVITY

i am trying to organize it

2009-09-28T19:39:00.000-07:00

fibers crit space

A slight glimpse into a piece I am working on right now. I am trying to highlight the inherent qualities of the wall and let them instruct my ideas, in collaboration with my visual language, to create a compositionally comfortable piece. Sounds like a mouthful but it really isn't. I am adorning the wall, giving it beauty and a little bit of humor. I am using this wall as a site for a visual puzzle.

The first step was highlighting the holes in the wall that were preexisting in a way I saw most fit. This created its own pattern because of people's tendencies to pin their work in certain places. The next step was to layer my own self realized printed layer of hand drawn lines. This is playing with translucency and the idea that I wanted to display my printed design without disregarding how it communicates with what existed in its place originally. (so far it is said to look "beautiful")
My next step in this piece is to give the plug fixture purpose. (this could potentially be the angst or humor)

This was all just a puzzle I created for myself. I am trying to organize my ideas and solve it in a way that is comfortable for me.

Rule1: consider everything (in terms of the 'bigger picture')
Rule2: keep it quiet (so as not to let any of the elements overpower each other with their possibly different emotions)

new work space

2009-09-23T09:56:00.001-07:00

So, I have been afforded a great new home to work in. This cubical is bare now but the walls will quickly be covered in fabrics and prints. Just you wait. I am very excited.

reintroduce text

2009-09-20T20:14:00.000-07:00

Warily creating a label, I suppose.

I am developing a personal vocabulary to talk about art work and my intent with it.

I feel like a child, starting at the beginning, even though I know at the core they are all just words. I want it to be clear, though, that the art has its own vocabulary that is worth more than words.

I wrote this recently and stuck it on the wall of my studio.

"Art is a religion. Religion is just a word."

I think that sums it up.

Here is my in progress brainstorm. So far there are only two categories in my vocabulary. Space. and... Portrait. These lists are not necessarily synonyms but they are synonymous in my head....See what I mean...

Space: installation, organization, "the bigger picture", systems, reactionary, primary, choice, society, objective, sterilized, balance, repetition, units, angular, simple, large scale, industrial, relatable, universal, formal, considered, cohesive, limited elements, rules, regulations, games, control, us, surface, body

Portrait: quiet, image, figure, personal, memory, feminine, organic, precious, relative, narrative, relationship, domestic, growth, familiar, individual, singular, focused, comfortable, humane, story, free-form, me, emotive, depth, mind, decoration, delicate, interaction, civilization, selfish, secondary, me

Similar: line, symbol, personality, medium, reality, purpose

simulation

2009-09-15T18:23:00.000-07:00

unnerving

2009-09-11T06:13:00.001-07:00

2009-08-24T14:27:00.001-07:00

like some kind of vegetable love

2009-08-10T09:13:00.000-07:00

are you through?

2009-07-09T14:12:00.000-07:00

considering abandonment

2009-06-02T20:47:00.001-07:00

this is my father

2009-05-27T11:29:00.001-07:00

get over it

2009-05-25T07:02:00.000-07:00

cease to be

2009-05-18T08:54:00.001-07:00

that is how strong this is

2009-05-10T16:40:00.000-07:00

it isn't so much a matter of boiling

2009-04-28T09:49:00.001-07:00

keep falling harder. and harder yet.

2009-04-21T07:42:00.000-07:00

fall apart harder. harder harder.

2009-04-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

from sol to eva

2009-04-06T18:05:00.000-07:00

..."Just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, struggling, grasping, confusing, itchin, scratching, mumbling, bumbling, grumbling, humbling, stumbling, numbling, rumbling, gambling, tumbling, scumbling, scrambling, hitching, hatching, bitching, moaning, groaning, honing, boning, horse-shitting, hair-splitting, nit-picking, piss-trickling, nose sticking, ass-gouging, eyeball-poking, finger-pointing, alleyway-sneaking, long waiting, small stepping, evil-eyeing, back-scratching, searching, perching, besmirching, grinding, grinding, grinding away at yourself. Stop it and just DO!"...

trouble

2009-04-02T12:41:00.000-07:00

i will continue to laugh in the face of a new day

2009-03-30T07:56:00.000-07:00

portrait

2009-03-29T18:25:00.001-07:00

he asked me what was wrong and told me to relieve anxiety however i saw fit so i drew a million plus lines on a wall with blue paint

2009-03-28T08:44:00.000-07:00

unnumbered pages

2009-03-22T20:03:00.000-07:00

flax

2009-03-10T10:38:00.000-07:00

playing hooky

2009-03-01T16:03:00.000-08:00

semiosis...kinda

2009-02-27T05:17:00.000-08:00

he needs to stop talking at me

2009-02-22T14:06:00.001-08:00

i miss painting

2009-02-17T19:49:00.001-08:00

and so what

2009-02-16T15:12:00.000-08:00

i really don't like the word lament

2009-02-15T11:10:00.000-08:00

act of superstition

2009-01-28T09:38:00.001-08:00

Era il mio?

2009-01-23T07:21:00.000-08:00

i am alright

2009-01-20T09:25:00.000-08:00

i find respit here

2009-01-13T08:54:00.000-08:00

house plants and a pair of ants

2009-01-03T15:29:00.000-08:00

highlight your mistakes

2009-01-02T06:51:00.000-08:00

more from home

2008-12-30T12:23:00.000-08:00

it could be home

2008-12-22T12:28:00.000-08:00

find your own symbols

2008-12-22T06:39:00.001-08:00

I'm just a sucker for good.

2008-12-17T12:17:00.001-08:00

Cannot stably exist

2008-12-13T12:59:00.000-08:00

one week or so.....

2008-12-10T05:17:00.001-08:00

I am a boring person, still.

2008-11-21T13:55:00.001-08:00

Hello, I'm down here still.

2008-11-20T08:48:00.000-08:00

chymest.

2008-11-19T07:39:00.001-08:00

It's a wonder all the trees ain't laying down...

2008-11-16T13:58:00.000-08:00

Pardon my heart if I showed that I cared

2008-11-13T13:04:00.000-08:00

And I told you to be balanced...

2008-11-12T06:00:00.000-08:00

SItting in the tub...beer in hand.

2008-11-10T09:39:00.001-08:00

Sto dormendo.

2008-11-06T12:39:00.000-08:00

Went Home last weekend.

2008-11-05T06:47:00.000-08:00

I used to think there was a spirit of an old woman in this tree. You can see her face in the bark. I used to talk to her and ask her for advice....after I realized that god wasn't what I was taught in Sunday school. Good to see she is still there just as I remembered. ...Right when I noticed I have come around full circle.

home

2008-10-31T12:45:00.001-07:00

le compagne dello studio

2008-10-30T12:36:00.000-07:00

mmmmmmmmhmm

2008-10-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

Trees grow high and I am on them. Come and climb to me….I won’t be waiting.

I am a terrible person

2008-10-26T09:14:00.000-07:00

...feelin' fine

I purposely step on all the cracks now. It feels good. I laugh at pictures of myself as an infant for kicks. Most of the time, I want to sit absolutely still and stare at nothing...thinking of nothing.

Come on. Get jealous.

say

2008-10-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

Honestly...as I always am. Tired of people. Tired of humans. Less interesting than they think. Predictable and noioso. Don't want to fake it. Won't.

hmm....

2008-10-20T09:11:00.000-07:00

I give up.

2008-10-16T12:14:00.000-07:00

Sono rimettuto nel'asciugamano......La bandiera bianca.

oh you.

2008-10-12T10:24:00.000-07:00

Remember the days when you were contently asexual?

2008-09-29T13:13:00.001-07:00

You are turning into your mother. You are like The Mother.
Maternal without child.

Ain't got nothin' at all.

2008-09-23T07:19:00.000-07:00

Noi ci siamo lasciati.

I am feeling as though every instance in my life is not of my doing. I feel as though people and things just happen to me and I am always here, left in a stable constant. I don't Really feel terrible about it but I'm certainly not thrilled. I wasn't completely excited and overjoyed when it started...it was just something else. It was and is just another experience to add to the numbing of my senses. Cold and Hard you may say. I am pounded in like a brick. I don't flinch. I have little to say. I am boring to myself. I am not sad. I am not happy. I am just working. I can't recall. The emotion's name is not important. I am doing it without guideline or premeditation. Whatever it is...it just happened to me.

This is how I feel at night these days.

2008-09-20T11:33:00.000-07:00

They didn't have to take you away.

2008-09-12T02:28:00.001-07:00

Its damned if you dont and its damned if you do

2008-09-08T13:15:00.000-07:00

Her: It's obvious you are not a woman.

Him: I have been aware of that for some time.

Her: Well I am.

Him: I'll say.

Infected.....drained.

2008-09-02T14:25:00.000-07:00

orange

2008-08-22T18:40:00.000-07:00

pelli

2008-08-22T18:39:00.001-07:00

pending...

2008-08-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

Penso che ti amo...

Small

2008-08-21T09:50:00.000-07:00

They all love someone like me. It is superficial. If I were a guy they would be after me too. Presume thus.

Non so.

chill.

2008-08-05T17:23:00.000-07:00

What are you so god damn stressed about?

where did you sleep last night?

2008-08-02T04:50:00.000-07:00

It is very easy to be honest when you have very little attached. What is high school? What are past relationships? What is what you would like to have?

I think it is time to move into 2141. It is ready for me and I am ready for it. Lay low for a week.

Details.

Idle

2008-08-01T09:02:00.001-07:00

Eveything is [still] everything

2008-07-31T05:36:00.000-07:00

Ho indossato queste scarpe...

2008-07-30T04:28:00.000-07:00

...but that goes without saying.

....É vero.......

Lo sai.

2008-07-29T06:08:00.000-07:00

Summer is really gonna hurt you.

The Accidents

2008-07-28T05:49:00.001-07:00

didn't watch my back....

had a fight with waves and coral reef....and lost....

Sono tornata negli stati uniti

2008-07-27T16:34:00.000-07:00

Radiohead's "Weird Fishes/Arpeggi" = Portishead's "The Rip"

and their triplet looks and sounds like this...

expect many new posts full of pictures from the past two months in Italia.

oh and this..... the quadruplet.